i thought about this all day.
it came up in my dreams too.
no matter what, barging in to someone’s life and saying ‘bye’ and disappearing is wrong.
it was a dick move and thus me a giant asshole.
that’s not how i am or like to be.
so here it is,
i don’t let many people into my life.
because i care for the people in my life.
i drive half way across the country overnight and fly halfway around the world for these people.
for these people i put my life on hold.
and you are too likable.
things like your inquisitive mind. your dreadful shyness craving attention. enthusiasm to experience something new. and your disposition to see deeper.
you see the problem.
i don’t know you and this is how i see you.
and i think if i stay any longer, i might end up liking you too much.
to keep my sanity, what else is there to say ‘bye’ and stay away.


